LAZY!

I think i have some kind of condition. OCD combined with Chronic Laziness.

I start to itch and cant relax properly when the house is a mess. But guess what? Its always a mess, because of the chronic laziness! Thus resulting in anxiety due to living in a pigs sty but not doing anything about it because i can't be arsed, leading to more anxiety. So it goes on.

I cannot remember the last time i did washing. However i am reminded of it every time i go upstairs into the bedroom as the pile of clean washing is there staring at me, waiting to be put away. Instead of laying it in draws, hanging it up, it gets used when it needs to be used, and the stuff that gets left over (why do things always get washed that i haven't worn in years?) gets put back into the wash basket, cos, hey its easier than putting them away (ah, answered my own question..)

there is a pile dating back 6 months of letters on the kitchen table, that just get put into an ever expanding pile and moved round the house, I've read them, i just cant be bothered to turn around to the box file by the boiler and FILE THEM! When i do do this, i even congratulate myself, and that makes me feel that i have earned not to file for another few weeks.

don't get me started on washing up.. i don't. he does it.

Maybe I've not got an energy inducing diet? maybe that's it? but I'm to lazy to find out and buy energy inducing food. where does everyone else get their energy from, just to do the most simple of tasks?! like hanging up a coat..

I wish i had a beautiful clean tidy place to live, but I've started to think "what is the point?" Its not like anybody comes to visit, and when they do, then i clean. rare times.